My stomach is nervous and my brain is jumpy as I walk out into the cool dark morning. The air is slightly misty. The sun is absent. The new shirt I wear is crisp with creases much like the leaves on the trees. My new cords feel comfortable right now but will feel heavy and warm by [...]
Out of necessity I have trained myself to keep the blues and energy draining feelings in check. I am in no way saying that I do not get the blues or feel down and gloomy occasionally. I’ve experienced debilitating stress and profound sadness but I’ve also worked my way through such funks to see the light [...]
Now That I Am On My Own: 1. I check my purse three or four times before I get out of the car to make sure I have my keys. I do not want to have to call my ex-husband (has spare set). I am slightly OCD about this. 2. I'm more aware of my body. [...]
We chose Friday night to tell the kids. We figured this gave them a two-day buffer before they had to go back to school. Somehow Jeff (ex-husband) and I managed to make it through the pre-talk dinner without bursting into tears or throwing up. We told them we were going to have a family meeting in [...]
We sat in the divorce mediator's well appointed waiting room. Good cologne and flavored coffee mingled in the air. My then husband, Jeff, and I filled out separate forms attached to clip-boards. A Keurig coffee machine sat between us. Our drive over together was chatty and not entirely uncomfortable; a mixture of first date, sheep-to-slaughter and relief. [...]
After we started the divorce process, my ex-husband made the comment, You're the first one over the wall. At the time, I knew of several women who found their marriages deeply unfulfilling and/or unbearable. Even though they were miserable they were afraid to take the leap and end it. Now I wondered if they were watching to see [...]