Feeling Stuck?: How to Return to Love, Openness and Bliss

Synchrodestiny requires gaining access to a place deep within yourself, while at the same time awakening to the intricate dance of coincidences out in the physical world.                                            — Deepak Chopra

Synchrodestiny: A constant state of connecting with all the possibilities that are.

I was in a funk. I was a tight little ball of budgets, taxes, duties, have to’s and narrow thinking. One foot in front of the other, head down, mind buzzing. I was taking care of things but feeling anxious and even a tiny bit lonely (rare for me).

Unknowingly, I was closing myself off to possibilities. I was physically, mentally and spiritually starving myself of openness by only focusing on the issues being thrown at me. I didn’t look within.  I was too stressed to look without. I was reactive with no proactive. It’s difficult to attract anything positive when your body and spirit are lacking suppleness and flexibility. I started to sink into a state of trapped.

I hate trapped.

I will do anything to be free.

Years of bliss

I recalled my years of bliss. The ones where I couldn’t wait to get up every morning. When it was easy to be gracious. When coincidences abounded and I noticed every one of them. When the Universe spoke and I heard her.

Yes, I had years like that.  I know. I’m so damn lucky.

I asked myself what I did back then that I’m not doing now. How was I so open and happy?

Engage the senses and experience the present

For starters, I used all my senses and experienced the present deeply. I used my hands to play guitar. I dove into fitness and pushed my body harder than I ever had before. Musician friends kept me immersed in music, creating an incredible soundtrack to the most inspiring time in my life (thus far;).  Playing guitar, intensely exercising and feeling music all served as meditative practices that fed me internally. They turned off the chatter in my head and created space for daydreaming, intuition and imagination. Doing led to being.

Meditating in the closet is cool

Speaking of meditating, I did that too. I sat in my closet and breathed with awareness. I attended  group meditation led by a Buddhist monk. I mentally removed the boundaries between my body and everything else. I suspended my mind and its torrent of thoughts. I reached that euphoric state of floaty brain. God, that is a delicious realm.

Getting spiritual and metaphysical and digging it

I read spiritual and metaphysical books like Eckhart Tolle’s, A New Earth and Neale Donald Walsch’s, Conversations with God. Tolle is all about now, the ego and consciousness. Walsch is all about explaining the divine. They said things like, If you can be absolutely comfortable with not knowing who you are, then what’s left is who you are (Tolle) and Hell is the opposite of joy. It is unfulfillment. It is knowing Who and What You Are, and failing to experience that. (Walsch). I not only drank in all the philosophizing, I understood it.

The more I explored these teachings of humanity and being, the more gracious and open-minded people entered my world. I found friends who were just as eager as I was to talk about beauty, love and the essence of being human. I found a whole hippie tribe.;)

I read Jason Mraz’s blog. I laughed at his witty and human stories. I learned about gratitude and pure love. Jason was forever pointing out beautiful things, advocating for kindness and loving with every fiber of his slight, raw diet-fed, being. He lived by the message  tattooed on his arm — Be Love. I tried to too.

While sipping on all of this incredible nectar, I felt a sense of light and love that filled me up and spilled out onto others. It was effortless to love others and in doing so I received it back tenfold.

I got both out of and into my head. I expanded on the inside. I glowed on the outside.

Losing loveliness

But I got away from that loveliness. I found myself buried in the daily grind again. Regretting the past and worrying about the future. Relying on others to fill me up. Ignoring my senses and speeding through moments instead of honoring them. And I felt trapped, limited and fearful.

Getting it back

Then, three of my friends from the era of awakening contacted me within a month of each other. We had all scattered to our own corners of the city, but out of the blue, they appeared in my life prompting me to reminisce about the enlightened old days.

I suddenly had an itch to try a new fitness class. A knee injury that had sidelined me for months, healed just in time for my foray into a warrior yoga class. Intensely concentrating on the fluid poses, hand weights and heated room, brought me back to the meditative workouts I did years before. I walked out of the yoga studio with renewed energy, an internal and external strength bubbling up.

Deeply thoughtful reading like, 18 Things Highly Creative People Do Differently and Becoming Emotionally Self-Reliant, kept making its way into my inbox. I started a second perusing of the books that changed me during the years of incredible growth.

Distressed from sleepless nights, I downloaded several guided meditation podcasts. My mind and spirit desperately needed a break. They are now resting and bathing in the rapturous feelings of floaty brain and a more peaceful inner world.

I’m inching my way back to a way of being that surfaced during those years of kindness, openness and graciousness. When I was deeply connected to all possibilities.

I just hope Jason Mraz shows up.:)

How do you get back to center? Have you experienced a time of bliss? 

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