Synchrodestiny requires gaining access to a place deep within yourself, while at the same time awakening to the intricate dance of coincidences out in the physical world. — Deepak Chopra
Synchrodestiny: A constant state of connecting with all the possibilities that are.
I was in a funk. I was a tight little ball of budgets, taxes, duties, have to’s and narrow thinking. One foot in front of the other, head down, mind buzzing. I was taking care of things but feeling anxious and even a tiny bit lonely (rare for me).
Unknowingly, I was closing myself off to possibilities. I was physically, mentally and spiritually starving myself of openness by only focusing on the issues being thrown at me. I didn’t look within. I was too stressed to look without. I was reactive with no proactive. It’s difficult to attract anything positive when your body and spirit are lacking suppleness and flexibility. I started to sink into a state of trapped.
I hate trapped.
I will do anything to be free.
Years of bliss
I recalled my years of bliss. The ones where I couldn’t wait to get up every morning. When it was easy to be gracious. When coincidences abounded and I noticed every one of them. When the Universe spoke and I heard her.
Yes, I had years like that. I know. I’m so damn lucky.
I asked myself what I did back then that I’m not doing now. How was I so open and happy?
Engage the senses and experience the present
For starters, I used all my senses and experienced the present deeply. I used my hands to play guitar. I dove into fitness and pushed my body harder than I ever had before. Musician friends kept me immersed in music, creating an incredible soundtrack to the most inspiring time in my life (thus far;). Playing guitar, intensely exercising and feeling music all served as meditative practices that fed me internally. They turned off the chatter in my head and created space for daydreaming, intuition and imagination. Doing led to being.
Meditating in the closet is cool
Speaking of meditating, I did that too. I sat in my closet and breathed with awareness. I attended group meditation led by a Buddhist monk. I mentally removed the boundaries between my body and everything else. I suspended my mind and its torrent of thoughts. I reached that euphoric state of floaty brain. God, that is a delicious realm.
Getting spiritual and metaphysical and digging it
I read spiritual and metaphysical books like Eckhart Tolle’s, A New Earth and Neale Donald Walsch’s, Conversations with God. Tolle is all about now, the ego and consciousness. Walsch is all 
about explaining the divine. They said things like, If you can be absolutely comfortable with not knowing who you are, then what’s left is who you are (Tolle) and Hell is the opposite of joy. It is unfulfillment. It is knowing Who and What You Are, and failing to experience that. (Walsch). I not only drank in all the philosophizing, I understood it.
The more I explored these teachings of humanity and being, the more gracious and open-minded people entered my world. I found friends who were just as eager as I was to talk about beauty, love and the essence of being human. I found a whole hippie tribe.;)
I read Jason Mraz’s blog. I laughed at his witty and human stories. I learned about gratitude and 
pure love. Jason was forever pointing out beautiful things, advocating for kindness and loving with every fiber of his slight, raw diet-fed, being. He lived by the message tattooed on his arm — Be Love. I tried to too.
While sipping on all of this incredible nectar, I felt a sense of light and love that filled me up and spilled out onto others. It was effortless to love others and in doing so I received it back tenfold.
I got both out of and into my head. I expanded on the inside. I glowed on the outside.
Losing loveliness
But I got away from that loveliness. I found myself buried in the daily grind again. Regretting the past and worrying about the future. Relying on others to fill me up. Ignoring my senses and speeding through moments instead of honoring them. And I felt trapped, limited and fearful.
Getting it back
Then, three of my friends from the era of awakening contacted me within a month of each other. We had all scattered to our own corners of the city, but out of the blue, they appeared in my life prompting me to reminisce about the enlightened old days.
I suddenly had an itch to try a new fitness class. A knee injury that had sidelined me for months, healed just in time for my foray into a warrior yoga class. Intensely concentrating on the fluid poses, hand weights and heated room, brought me back to the meditative workouts I did years before. I walked out of the yoga studio with renewed energy, an internal and external strength bubbling up.
Deeply thoughtful reading like, 18 Things Highly Creative People Do Differently and Becoming Emotionally Self-Reliant, kept making its way into my inbox. I started a second perusing of the books that changed me during the years of incredible growth.
Distressed from sleepless nights, I downloaded several guided meditation podcasts. My mind and spirit desperately needed a break. They are now resting and bathing in the rapturous feelings of floaty brain and a more peaceful inner world.
I’m inching my way back to a way of being that surfaced during those years of kindness, openness and graciousness. When I was deeply connected to all possibilities.
I just hope Jason Mraz shows up.:)
How do you get back to center? Have you experienced a time of bliss?
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Yet again, I somehow come across one of your posts with perfect timing; as I recently bought some Kindle e-books written by Pema Chödrön (which I need to catch up on) and sparked a sudden interest in Buddhism a couple of days before I came across this. One thing which definitely seems to help me to find that ideal state of mind and being is creativity. When I lack in creativity, I feel like I am slowly losing myself. So I will draw/paint, handcraft something or mess about with a musical instrument and suddenly I feel much better, I think pursuing creative tasks enables one to relax the mind and just enjoy everything as it is during the now with one’s senses.
I enjoy reading your posts so much, and every time I feel like we can connect through your fab writing. Thanks! 🙂
I love Pema Chodron and the tenants of Buddhism! I also read a lot around those subjects. Both gave me a sense of peace and calm.
Yes to creativity! It truly is transformational to create something. Writing does that for me. It allows me to go within AND connect with others. Getting in flow mode is so nourishing. Great point.:)
It is my deepest pleasure to connect with you through writing. Thank you for reading and reaching out to me.
This is pure Keroauc–non-linear, not 100 percent coherent, beautiful. You were ecstatic when you wrote this, no?
I get in a poetic, not totally coherent state every once in a while. I just roll with it. I’ll take any comparison to Kerouac. Thank you!!
Beautiful! I utterly relate to your journey – I’ve gone back and forth, too. “I was reactive with no proactive.” Love that! Isn’t that where we all start feeling trapped… within our protective, fearful knee-jerkyness instead of living in our response-ability to ourselves, our inner life….and then it connects us and ripples out. GREAT quote by Chopra – finding that deep soothing balance between the inner and outer dance. Thank you Brenda!